The other side of the door

Fingers poised and ready on the keyboard.
Tears rolling down my face...I need an answer God.

I am not you God.
I cannot heal this situation that is breaking my heart.
I have prayed, waited and listened.
I moved believing it was what you wanted.
The big door shut today...loud and hard.
My heart broke...is still breaking.
People that I adore are hurting, and now I am on the other side of the door.
Right where You want me to be, because I am not you.
I am so thankful that I can trust you God.
You love them so much more than I do, so if my heart is hurting your heart hurts all the more.
So, knowing that you are faithful...finding peace in that truth...I will let go.
Remaining in prayer and ready to be used in the way that you choose.
I am not you...
and I will respect the door.
Thank you for holding the one's I love.
Thank you for healing them...in your time.
It's a big job...and you are even bigger!
Peace.